"For the Good"

Sometimes it's hard to believe that God has his best for the good of those who love Him. He says he will not let us go through something that we can't bear. But, right now, the load is so heavy I can't hold it anymore. Feeling overwhelmed with emotion, all these emotions. I don't even know where they come from, or what to do with them when they get here.

Life is different now. It won't ever be the same. And learning to deal with that is hard...really hard. How do I get my mind to wrap around reality? How do I come to grips with what has happened without sinking into despair? I don't want to carry the load anymore. But I don't necessarily know how to give it up yet. I don't know what that looks like. All I know is that God is good, and while I'm sitting in the waiting room, this is the song that is playing:

We like to take the blessing from You
Should we not take the trouble too
You are working all things out
We like to take prosperity
Should we not take the suffering
You are working all things out

For the good
of those who are called by You
For the good
of those who are in love with You

That's why we sing
Holy God of light
I lay down my life
Holy is the Lord
Even in the storm be glorified.
"For the Good"
Shane and Shane